Words scribbled down a ruled notebook page in dark, black ink. Memories promenading through your mind like phantoms in the night. Judgment, condemnation, guilt, closing in around you. Have you ever felt this way? Have you ever felt the weight of your past sins pressing down on you even though you’ve been forgiven and redeemed by the blood of Christ? Have you ever found that you are your own worst accuser? That you keep digging up the buried notebook of your past, reading through the list of failures, and adding freshly inked letters to the page? Well, don’t feel that you’re alone. There are others who do the same. Even the Apostle Paul, after having received redemption, felt the weight of sin on his life.
“What a wretched man I am! Who will deliver me out of the body of this death?” (Romans 7:24)
The devil doesn’t want you to forget, so he continues handing you fresh shovels and pens for you to keep your list and remind you of what’s written on the page. However, it doesn’t have to be like that. God doesn’t want this for you. Jesus died on the cross for us so that we may be released from sin and guilt. The moment you ask forgiveness of God and accept Him into your heart, it’s like God takes a giant eraser and turns the inked, marred page into an empty sheet to be filled with words of joy.
“You were made alive when you were dead in transgressions and sins, in which you once walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit who now works in the children of disobedience; among whom we also all once lived in the lusts of our flesh, doing the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, even as the rest. But God, being rich in mercy, for his great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead through our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved), and raised us up with him, and made us to sit with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, that in the ages to come he might show the exceeding riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus; for by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, that no one would boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared before that we would walk in them.” (Ephesians 2:1-10)
So when you begin to feel the weight of your past sins for which you have already received forgiveness, remember that God has erased them from the page and released you from the chains which held you.
“But now, being made free from sin, and having become servants of God, you have your fruit of sanctification, and the result of eternal life.” (Romans 6:22)