Do you ever have nights when you just can’t sleep? You toss. You turn. You lay flat. You curl up. Maybe you get up and read. Or have a snack. You pray. And still your eyes won’t close. You look at the clock and watch as the moments tick slowly by.
I’ve struggled with insomnia off and on for awhile now, largely due to anxiety. Sometimes the anxiety comes out of nowhere; there is a specific thing that I’m worried about. Other times, the list is long. And I don’t know about you, but I find that my fears grow much bigger in the dark. Hills that are conquerable in the light of day grow and morph into fantastic, ozone-clearing peaks in the wee hours. I stare up the heights and feel small.
Leaving the crowd behind, they took Him along, just as He was, in the boat. There were also other boats with Him. A furious squall came up, and the waves broke over the boat, so that it was nearly swamped.
– Mark 4:36-37
Be it frightening mountains or raging storms, we, like Jesus’ disciples, live in a world that threatens to knock us out at every turn. The disease that strikes without warning. Wondering where the next meal will come from. Sudden homelessness. Broken families. Difficult work situations. Hurts. Wounds.
Jesus was in the stern, sleeping on a cushion. The disciples woke Him and said to Him, “Teacher, don’t you care if we drown?”
– Mark 6:38
We ask the same question as we wrestle with clinging sheets and lumpy pillows. When the math doesn’t make sense, when there is no solution, when the worst is happening. How will we survive? Doesn’t Jesus care? Where is He?
He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.
– Mark 6:39
Dear friend, when the tears roll down your cheeks and your chest aches from the pounding, strain to listen. Amid the chaos and the questioning, the strong voice of the Savior will cut through. He is there. He has not left. He knows of your worries and He reaches out to stop the wringing of your hands. He speaks to your soul.
I am here.
You are not alone.
The troubles may not cease. There may not be a sudden, wonderful solution that pops into your mind. But hold on to Him! Cherish His voice! You have not been left to scale that peak or ride those waves on your own. The One who made the world and everything in it – including you – holds you close to His heart.
In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, Lord, make me dwell in safety.
– Psalm 4:8